Missing you before and now

I'm wondering about things...

Worried if there's anything wrong with me in particular...

Why does everything have to be like this?

Over and over and over...

It's just been a draining start of a new year...

No.. It's already May...

Things aren't really improving...

There's been as much pain as joy...

Bad?

SIGH...

I love you... But it's so tough

Life's like this

You think

You wonder

You reflect

You look back

You don't know much... Oh well

Surrender

The poem I did for our group in tutorial today about environment:

Strangely in the golden eye's setting,

The ocean waves seem to be struggling,

What's that? Filthy bubbles bobbling?

The picture before me is no longer mersmerising,

Mankind even more horrible in my sight.

How could they be enjoying in such a sad night,

When I'm trying to save this place with all my might?

Inconsiderate, they are, that the trees are choking...

Couldn't they feel the dying lives around them, revolving?
My heart... in agony... in immense pain... but I'm not surrendering.

Could you guess the meaning?

Time

Wish I could be in many places now...

Hmmm...

Oh well...